For those who read the previous posts...a chance to read the final word from me....

Sharon
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I can certainly acknowledge the words you sent, but do not believe there was any true sentiment behind them. I truly wish I thought differently.
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I don’t even know how all this began.
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I probably shouldn’t have used the quote on my blog, it’s true, (and it is now gone) but I don’t understand how Bella got brought into this simply because she left a comment. Since neither she nor I posted much on Toko there has been very little contact between us. There is certainly, nor has there ever been any conspiracy between us regarding you, Toko, or anything else for that matter. I keep up with her via her blog. Of course I realize that no amount of protestation on my part will convince.
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Christ, the first thing I even KNEW about all of this is when Kerry called me pretty late on Saturday evening and asked me what the fuck was going on! I asked her to copy and paste the thread in question into an email and send it to me – which she did. Incidentally, there was a subsequent reply from Dandy which stated the following: “Second, I will openly let you all know that I was one of the long timers here that had a bad taste in my mouth seeing Viv and Bella still hanging about. I made a post not too long ago and Viv responded to that post. I was suprised that she responded. I pm'd her and thanked her for the reply as I thought she was starting to come around and try to get back into the old Viv's clothes. I couldn't have been more wrong. The events that followed were just so childish and below me that I never responded to her again.” I want to state that yes she did send me a PM, but that I never replied to it, so when she talks about “the events that followed” I have not the first clue what she is talking about.
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Oh before I forget…..no-one was more shocked than me to see a comment from Nat on my blog. That was the first time I had seen her name since she left the forum. To believe that or not is your choice and I’m going to waste no more effort on it.
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I have no idea who the members were who sent PM’s about what Bella and I were supposedly “getting away with”, and honestly I have no desire to know, although I understand that Suz has apparently disliked me since PL days (so it really must have chaffed her ass to send me a Christmas gift!). I would like to know what I was supposed to be getting away with, but that’s by the by. I have received enough messages since this began to know that thankfully the people who mean the most to me on Toko are not amongst those on the witch hunt.
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After the last ban I wanted to come back to Toko simply to keep up with certain ladies, their PG’s and their kids. I never once posted anything scandalous, defamatory or abusive, and I avoided your threads totally as I thought it would be the smart thing to do. If I had access to the forums now it would simply be to continue to do the same thing…to follow progress, post once in a blue moon and pretty much keep myself to myself. There would be no posts from me regarding any of this, as I’m simply not prepared to supply any more fuel for the burn. But that’s up to you. It’s your site. You do whatever it is you feel you need to do.
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As I stated above, I have removed all recent posts from my blog. I’m not going to apologize for anything – no more than you are. But there will be no more of this as far as I am concerned. I was as angry as a box of frogs and I got mean. It happens. I’m moving house in 2 weeks time, I’m up to my ass in cardboard boxes, and I need to lower my stress level, not add to it!
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So that’s it Sharon. I’m done with it. May you achieve everything you wish.
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Ruth