Other People's Children

I love watching other people's kids as they grow. I love hearing about all the things they're doing and how much progress they're making; but there are days when it literally breaks my heart when I think that our son would now be the same age (10 months old), and under different circumstances it would be me proudly showing picutres and videos. I sometimes sit in the lounge and wonder what it would be like to have this little fella crawling around....driving the dog mad and exhausting us at every turn.

Would we even be considering moving house just yet? Probably not. Would we still have the same car? Definitely not....our Astra Coupe is just too low and only has 2 doors - completely impractical. And yet here we are about to move and considering buying another sporty car come December.

I sometimes marvel at the fact that I haven't gone completely insane over the past year; and yet I haven't. Oh there are times when I feel like I've gone over the edge....times when Andy does something that makes me want to take him out into the garden and bury him under the patio.

And what about that? What right do I have to sit here and think that my pain over our losses is any more acute than Andy's?

One thing is true though, I love that man more than even he can imagine, and I AM looking forward to this new start in a new house. And judging by the house that we have chosen to move to, we have both quietly accepted that it will forever be just the two of us.

Note to Self # 4

Check for hanging trails of toilet paper BEFORE leaving the office restroom!

A Beautiful Day??

I woke up this morning and it was foggy!! We haven't seen fog here for quite some time. Well my drive to work takes approximately 45 minutes and takes me over a range of hills here called the North Downs. When I reached the top of the downs I was above the fog!! There was bright sunshine, clear blue skies and 'bits' of the world were poking up through the fog....church steeples, the tops of trees and the like. It all really put a smile on my face. Scenes like that - such beauty - sometimes makes me wonder about the earth, the possibility of a divine being and all that jazz.

Then I drive down the motorway a little further and see a 3-car accident....a little further there's another....further still there's lanes which are littered with roadkill (poor bunnies!); and all the time the radio is belching out stories of terrorism, 'plane crashes, death and destruction.

The final nail in the coffin of religion is catching a glimps of GREY HAIR in the rearview mirror as I exit my car.

A benign supreme being? Don't make me laugh :)

Being Sick Sucks

Is it possible to grow back your tonsils?

I haven't had a sore throat like this in 20 years.

I'm sure.....

...that some people, and I shall mention no (new member of Toko) names here, spend WAY too much time locked away in darkened rooms; the only illumination coming from a computer screen which sits just beyond the end of thier nose. Imparting "wisdom" is the name of thier game, regardless of how badly they trample people in the process.

I have a little advice of my own.....PRESS THE OFF BUTTON....STEP AWAY FROM THE COMPUTER. IF YOU DO IT NOW, AND SPEND SOME TIME WITH THEM, YOUR CHILDREN MIGHT NOT WIND UP AS SANTIMONIOUS AND UNBEARABLE AS YOU.

Priorities

So it would appear that Tony (his royal Tonyness) Blair will, after all, be leaving the fair shores of the UK and taking his scheduled holiday.

That's ok Tony; with any luck the alleged 3rd cell of bombers will target Downing Street this time. Maybe then you'll finally get your priorities in order, you dumb bastard!